Relationships

I was just doing some thinking recently (most on the throne and in the shower… it’s true, your best thoughts come to you during those times), just reflecting on the things going on around me. And there seems to be this whole thing about relationships, romantic ones I mean. Being around two brothers who are both in relationships and having lots of friends who are also in relationships, it makes me really think about my own life. Not that I’m feeling pressure or actively pursing possibilities (trust me… everyday there are possibilities here… zam!), but makes me think about what I would want in a relationship and a partner. And it’s really weird. I think having two older brothers has really changed my… view of this whole dating thing. Most people like to date a lot, try relationships out with various people etc., but I find myself not like that at all. I’ve had one major relationship so far that didn’t work out, and have only had interest in one or two other people. I sorta have this philosophy that I’d only consider pursuing a relationship if I saw real potential in it. I mean, what’s the real point in dating someone who you don’t really see yourself with a couple years down the road with? Or even longer? (and here at Laurier, it wouldn’t be hard to do that… zam!) And it leads me to over-analytical… at least it seems that way. High standards? Yeah yeah… guys aren’t supposed to think/talk about this sorta stuff, but we do anyway. See, then it all leads me to think about whether or not I’ll eventually find the right person if I think about it that much. Then there’s the whole thing about fate, and whether or not God has that one person planned for you, and whether or not He’ll bring you both together no matter what. Blech… this whole relationship is really too draining… good thing I’m not in one right now. Also makes me wonder if I should just forget about that whole philosophy and do the dating thing. ‘cause, I mean… here… ZAM! We’ll see… hahahahahaha….